What is the point?

What is the point?
The point of staying,
Getting through the numbness,
Only for it to return with a stronger effect each time.

You just want things to go dark, to go quiet, to stop.
You wish the best for others, no harm, no sickness, no grief when this life takes you;
Or rather when you decide life should take you.

You understand fully what it means to carry a burden,
A weight that is just too heavy,
Crushing you from the inside.

You are admitting defeat,
You are finished fighting this storm.

You wish more than anything right now for the ground to just swallow you up,
To go without a dramatic exit or memorable parting.

So I ask again- what is the point of staying when the darkness surrounds you and there seem to be no hope?
The sun sheds a slight dim of light,
More comes with time.

Time.
Is that the answer?
Is time the way through this?

It feels impossible.
Pointless.

A little spark shimmers ahead in the distance.
Perhaps following the light is the way forwards.

It may not be an easy road ahead.
Nothing in life that is worth it, comes easy.

No matter what Rhiannon, follow the sparkle up ahead.

It will guide you.
It will show you little reasons to continue.
Even through the storms, which will come.
Through what feels like the undefeatable fight,
You will find the strength to overcome the enemy.
The enemy who has been the reason that you feel worthless and has gained power through convincing you that life isn’t worth living.

Every little reason you can find that goes against the enemy in your head,
Those reasons will give you the strength you need.
They will get you to a place where things feel more in your control.
It will be slow.
But you will build it up.
Until you are strong enough again.
Strong enough to take control.
To make decisions.
To keep going.

You will find reasons to stay.
A reason to be alive that isn’t just to barely survive.
There’s more to life than barely surviving.

You can create a life worth living, Rhi!