I No Longer…..

Although I have a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder
I no longer let it control me,
I’m no longer the sickest version of myself,
I no longer feel the need to gain validation for the smallest choices,
I no longer have angry outbursts or lose my temper on a daily basis.

Although I’ve had a diagnosis of an eating disorder
I no longer want to shrink my body,
I no longer wish I could disappear,
I no longer have an unhealthy relationship with food or exercise,
I no longer let what used to trigger, affect me at all,
I no longer compare myself to others’ bodies.

Although I have a diagnosis of depression/unstable mood/anxiety
I no longer have pseudo seizures,
I no longer find crowds anxiety-provoking,
I no longer get severe low moods leading to hospital admissions each month,
I no longer have PRN medication on my prescription,
I no longer need two therapy sessions a week to keep me stable,

Although I have a mental illness currently,
I’m in a stable state and will remain so.
I’ve not been this well since before my diagnosis and treatment.

Some things have helped,
Some haven’t.

I no longer see myself as ‘the girl with BPD’.

I’m Rhiannon.
I am a psychology student, a music lover, and a blogger.

A small chapter of my story has been living through crisis and relapse.
We’ve moved on from that part.
We will keep moving forward until the words “Rhiannon no longer meets the criteria for BPD diagnosis” are written on paper.