Stability

My therapist used a word in my session today that has described what I’ve longed to feel for far too long…

STABLE!

Now, with my mental health, have come periods of low mood, intrusive thoughts and impulsive behaviours which have all landed me in hospital in the past to keep me safe.

I think I’ve associated the hospital with safety even though I had been admitted during relapses.

But today, ‘stable’ was used to sum up my mental state. The decisions to keep going. The reduced to nearly non-exsistant harmful urges.

With my Borderline Personality Disorder I find that i rely on others to notice progress for it to feel validated and more real to me. So when stability was the one-word description, i truly felt seen and heard in a way ive never been in the community before.

Surrounded by nurses and doctors, progress each day is monitored and almist rewarded with leave and increases of independance when moving towards discharge. I’m making huge steps forwards and today it got recognised. It may have always been there. But sometimes people are careful not to say it too soon.

Mental health stability – ‘where an individual can effectively manage stress, maintain consistent moods, and navigate life’s challenges. It involves controlling thoughts and behaviors, fostering resilience, and maintaining healthy relationships, rather than just the absence of mental illness.’

I’m managing on a daily basis. That’s not simple or easy. But i really do think that my recovery jounrey can only get better from here.