I’m Hurting

The thing I’ve learnt about pain is everyone has a personal and individual experience.

Currently I’d describe how I feel as ‘hurting’.

It isn’t physical pain, yet there are physical components in my life that are being affected.

My pain comes from loss.

Loss of knowing who I am,

Of who my people are,

Of fitting in.

I’m hurting.

But it’s not in a way thats visible.

It’s a different kind,

It’s hard to express in words.

Mayne you wouldn’t know just by looking at me.

My life right now feels like it has been torn into millions of pieces that I am trying to put together.

But there is a piece missing, so I guess I feel empty and out of place in a way. Even if I complete the puzzle and everything comes together there’s going to be something missing.

It’s not going to be perfect.

I didn’t know life was the best I was going to have, until someone very important to me was taken away.

I’m hurting.

But this feeling will pass.

I’ll learn to live again.

I have to continue.

I’ll never forget and may never feel complete but life will go on.

And I will learn to remember the smiles, laughs and happiness.

I’ll never forget.

That piece of my life is too important to forget.

Love,

Rhi

Xxx