Voices

The voices in my head go around and around,

Repeating insults and judgements about my actions,

Making me doubt my worth in this life,

Am I good enough?

Have I convinced myself that I actually matter?

Who am I kidding?!

How could anyone love me?

But then there is a whisper…

Among the screams of negative rumours circling my brain – there is a childs voice;

Young and innocent,

It sounds calm and free,

I try and make out their words,

As I tune in to the childs’ voice the screams lower their volume, almost like they are losing their power to speak,

“You know what you need to do, Rhi. You can choose. I’m still here and I’m so proud of you for staying.”

They were the words I needed.

I’m staying.

Without realising, the negative voices were gone. I guess they lost interest in shouting lies at me.

My inner child’s voice was stronger and that’s all I needed.

I’m recovering for little Rhi.

She deserves to live a life of freedom.