When

When will i stop hurting?
When will the thoughts go away?
When will burnout have less control of me when it hits?
What if i dont want to feel sad again?
Everyone gets sad, right?
Its just normal.
Its part of the process.
Its unavoidable.
How can i get through it safely if it happens again?
It takes over so quickly.
It controls my thoughts.
When will i take back the reins.
When will i make the choice.
Will it ever be my choice?

These questions are going through my head one after the other.
There seems to be no end in sight.
So ill make the finish line.
Ill stop the thoughts on the conveyor belt.
I will take charge.
And i will change the record.
Its not easy, it never has been.
But it can slowly get better.
Not everything changes all at once.
Progress doesnt come from stopping your emotions from showing up.
No.
Progress is how you deal with them.
How you respond.
Your reactions.
And how you choose to move forward no matter the risk urges.

Slow down, take your time.
Its not a race.
And it cant be perfect all the time.

Give yourself the option to just breathe for a while.
Cause thats what your body might need right now.