STAY

I don’t know your story.
I dont know your past.
Im not here to criticise or judge.
But I am asking you to stay.
Stay so that we can watch the sun set on the beach together.
Stay so we can celebrate birthdays and Christmases and the start of a new year.
The feelings you are experiencing right now are confusing. You want to act on urges, and I get that. Its familiar, it’s a coping mechanism. But it doesn’t solve the problem. Your actions to engage in risk may help very short term. But the same issues will resurface and then what?
Please stay, Rhiannon.
You dont have to do this alone. You have so much support. Accept it. You are stronger than you think you are. Brave girl, you’ve gotten through so much already and you can get through this too.
Leaving this world isn’t the answer. It’s a permanent ending. I know deep down that scares you. You are scared incase this is the time it works, the time you leave.
That fear proves you don’t want to end your life.
Rhiannon, stay.
You are yet to experience so much, yet you’ve been through lots of things that others never will.
You’re 25 this year.

You’ve survived suicide attempts.

You’re living alone and independently.

You’ve managed to stay out of hospital

You’re living now.

You’re not just surviving from one moment to the next.

You need to slow down a little bit. Not everything needs completed so quickly.
Stay.
You have your psychology course to complete.
Your volunteering.
You have so many achievements coming up, if you go, what happens everything you’ve worked hard for?
This isn’t me telling you what to do, because I know you have the capacity to make choices. You deserve to make choices based on your own opinion.
Stay.
Understand these feelings will pass. They won’t last forever. You will be on the other side of your struggles if you keep going. Keep surviving. Keep taking it moment by moment until you can bare minute by minute, hour by hour and day by day. It will get easier. This is a wave that wants to swallow you up. So let me help you learn to ride the wave, to surf the urge until we get you over the peak of it. Then we will steady our balance together and prepare ourselves for the next. The waves won’t just stop. But they will get fewer and far between as they calm down and settle.
So, what’s your verdict?
Will you stay and create a life worth living?

Written on 21/09/25