What drives your crisis periods?
What aspects of your life contribute to how you feel in them moments?
For me, it sounds simple and easy to fix. Its much harder and when the downward spiral starts, it feels like there is no turning back. You dont always realise your mood is slipping. Its almost like switching a light on and off. Theres no pause to think in between.
Has that switch feeling become a habit? Have you tried catching yourself in the moment when thoughts are racing, urges to engage in risk are high and nothing feels like it will stop hurting? Thats a draining way to feel… Constantly using risk as a way to manage and subside anxiety, fear, hopelessness, and sadness.
When we get these kinds of feelings and thought patterns, our brain goes to firstly how we’ve managed the last time we felt something similar and if that is risk, it will become a repeated behaviour. Something we fall back to. Something we trust to make us feel relief. Maybe not even to feel ‘better’ but as an outlet for these deep, uncomfortable emotions.
What i need you to do is sit with the feeling. Dont give it control. Easier said than done? I understand. I really do. Maybe it is about sitting with it for longer than last time. Using skills, distractions, anything to take your mind off from the risks involved. If that means taking a shower, while visualising your negative thoughts going down the drain, feeling the sensation of the water, the temperature and the distraction of using body creams and relaxing, soothing scents, just for 15 minutes? That might be the start of a period of time where youve moved past the deepest emotions. It doesnt mean theyre gone, but that 15 minutes is time that you couldnt have managed last week, or last month.
You got through it!
Not because you were kept safe by others, or by letting it win. You got through that 15 minutes because you wanted to. You chose to try again. You gave yourself a task to see if it would pause the dark thoughts just for a bit.
You should be so SO proud of yourself. Choosing 15 minutes may have just saved you from a relapse. You can do it. Youve proven that its possible when you put all your energy into it.
Its time you make decisions like this a part of your routine. It could be what begins and maintains your recovery.
Do it for yourself!
Do it as proof that theres is hope in the darkest points of life!
Do it because you trust yourself!
30/11/2025
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