One year

One year,
One year from today i will be happier than right now.
I won’t be drowning in my own tears,
Screaming at my reflection for not being good enough,
Punishing myself for existing in a world i think would be better without me.

In one year i won’t regret staying in this broken world,
In the life i have grew to hate,
In circumstances i was refusing to change.

One year from now i will be thankful i accepted the support,
I will appreciate the people who stuck beside me, even when i pushed them away,
And i will understand that i am in control of my actions.

I have the power and skills to make this admission different to my past hospital stays.
I have the ability to use comparison from where I’ve been, to where I am headed in my recovery.

One year can change all my feelings about what my life can become.
I can take charge,
Take the reins,
And follow my dreams.

Reality is, if i choose this admission to be different, then thats what will happen, but i have the choice to make, consistently, every single day, no matter what.

Things won’t change unless I change my reactions, my emotional responses and my mindset.

I’ve just got to keep going!

One foot in front of the other!