What’s next?

There’s always a ‘what’s next?’ But this has been bringing you a lot of emotions due to pressure you put on yourself and stress that you assume will have the worst-case scenario.

There needs to be a time in your life that you live in the moment. Everything that is going to happen can’t be controlled right now.

Im not telling you not to worry about the future. Sometimes, it’s human instinct to worry. But when we can’t settle our minds from what could happen, we are living in what IS happening in life. We miss out on the beaming smiles, the belly laughs, the ‘first times’ and the ‘one offs’ that may not be experienced again. We lose the memories that can’t be re-lived.

Today is the 1st of September 2025, and I have spent it in a hospital admission.

I’ve used 8 months  of this year counting days that I’ve been out of hospital, risk-free, and in recovery, only to feel I’ve erased my progress each time I have a mental health wobble and start the counting again from day 1.

These last 8 months, I’ve been in recovery, out of recovery, in a major relapse, survived crisis points, and been inpatient multiple times.

This does NOT make me sicker than when I started. Life has been difficult, and now that I understand that what I thought would help has actually taken me a step backwards.

The progress I have made in the past doesn’t change. I have got through a lot. I’ve stumbled and crashed alot too.

My point is that nothing can take away what has already happened, and we can’t plan to perfection our future, so let’s live right here, right now.