Things are changing

My life isn’t how I planned it.

It has required a lot of support, intervention, and boundaries to get this far.

But I’ve overcome so much throughout the journey. And that’s not how I have viewed it in the past.

Up until recently, I’ve not been able to see any hope.

I was stopping myself from thinking about my future, what it might look like, and how I planned it for the weeks and months ahead.

Things are changing. Nothing has just clicked or had it’s time to just switch, but things are becoming different.

My mindset, while still fluctuating with ‘should haves’ and ‘could haves’, is allowing me to think about my achievements so far, as each day is unique and comes with challenges of it’s own.

I’m managing right now.

Managing to understand and accept my thoughts as what they are.

They no longer become me. But they are still there and might always be.

Im living alongside them.

That’s not something I’ve done before, I don’t think.

When I reflect, I often dont think of my achievements.

Recently, I’ve noticed the thoughts shifting.

I’ve wondered when it happened… What clicked to make such a big impact?

I’ll figure it out someday.

Until then, I’ll continue!

Happy 4 months in my flat!