Crisis point

You don’t know how you’ve survived this week. There were too many close calls.

There have been too many risks taken and impulsive decisions.

We’ve had to start over.

This doesn’t mean our recovery is back to having nothing… no positives, nothing that matters in life.

It does mean, however, that we’re at a point where change is the only option.

Bouncing in and out of hospital, through services, while telling different versions of what’s going on, and then in turn, not knowing yourself what’s most true, convincing ourselves we’ll be ok, but yet the thoughts take over our heads and we act on urges… It’s not sustainable or gaining anything positive. It’s putting you deeper into the dark, black hole that’s been created too quickly.

Don’t give up on your life.

You have continuously slipped up, fallen down, and reached the lowest of lows that you thought weren’t possible to get to. You have felt every emotion possible. But there is still more to come.

You need to turn this around not quickly or suddenly or all at once. You need to do something different. You need to comply with your recovery, as hard as it may be. You need to act opposite to action urges. You need to make something different happen.

So, although you may not be at day 1 because your journey started many years ago, and nothing can restart that journey and it will continue, you are starting recovery again.

DAY ONE

03/08/25

Let’s make this time the last one to be back to the start. Let’s do this together.

Accept support.

Choose honesty.

Realise where these past few days, weeks, and even months have got you. Are you proud of where it’s put you? Or do you need to relearn the skills that got you to the most positive you’ve ever been in? It’s not all or nothing. It doesn’t need to be black and white. Find your balance. Continue with your life as it comes. Moment by moment. Day by day. Until each little step feels a little more bearable. Manage a little more with no pressure. But don’t let your head put you off.

Create YOUR life worth living. Not one that others prepare have to for you.

You’ve hit burnout. You’re emotionally exhausted and detached from your own body. You’re not whole right now.

So build yourself back up. Start now.