Gaining back your glow

Tag: health

  • You are capable

    Dear reader,

    You may have come across this post accidently. There may be no meaning to what you’re about to encounter. So let me tell you something before you decide not to read any further…

    You are capable of ANYTHING you put your mind to.

    You have lots of different choices to make every single day. You can choose from options you don’t even notice you have until they’re taken away.

    My experience with choice is going to be different from others. Choice was taken away from me for so long. Until I made the decision to regain the little control that I still had.

    Rewind to 2023, I was discharged from my 3 year treatment admission where I lost everything and gained it all back, plus more.

    Although we’re now in 2025, I’d like to celebrate with anyone who has read this far.

    You can achieve amazing things. No matter how small they seem, how dark life gets, how impossible things feel, you have a choice. And you are capable of making a change. Just like I did.

    I continue to make my choices every day. Some more positive than others. But this is a reminder that anything you choose to do, say, think? That comes from you. You can be led to believe, persuaded, and convinced of things that aren’t true, aren’t factual, and aren’t the reality we are living, but that doesn’t have to sway us to negative choices.

    I’ve been out of the hospital exactly 100 days. That means I’ve made the choice to ask for help when it’s needed, accept support, acknowledge when things are hard, and understand what decisions could lead to my mental health deteriorating.

    100 DAYS!

    You are capable, my friend.

    You are stronger than any negative thought or urge.

    I am so damn proud of you for making it this far.

    I hope you see a little glow starting to sparkle and shimmer in the distance.

    Chase your dreams.

    Believe you can do anything you put your mind to.

    Because you’ve got the strength.

    You’re light is still shining. It’s just been dimmed a little with so much going on in your life.

    We can undo the past, but we can start to live in the present in order to support our future.

    Keep going!

  • Staying On The Continuum

    26/06/25

    You know there is a difference in having a bad day, and becoming deeply depressed? I’ve always though that my bad days were all a part of my depressive disorder, or my BPD. Until I attended my first day of a 14 week course in mental health, wellbeing and building resilience. I have learnt today, the common misconception that if I end the day in tears, it doesn’t automatically become linked to my a mood disorder. A part of it can be related if the sadness becomes a persistent part of my daily life and affects my everyday functioning, but when I feel tired, when I’m maybe coming up to my monthly cycle, when I’m feeling nervous about meeting a new mental health keyworker, they are all very normal, understandable things to use up emotions.

    And although I have desperately wanted things to keep going absolutely brilliantly 100% of every single day, and then BAMMMMMMMMM!!!!! I’m hit with physical pain, or a sudden change to routine, and I suddenly think, ‘I’m depressed again. I thought I was well. I thought I was recovered. Why does it never stay away?’ Truth is, a bad day doesn’t equal being mentally unwell. It means you’re body is feeling emotions, like everyone does.

    I ‘ve been on the continuum of recovery for about 3 months now. I’m having monthly mental health appointments, and now I know, the bad days, have been just that! They haven’t been weeks of continuously sadness and outbursts, and self harm, leading to hospital visits or an increase in support being put in place. I am the furthest I’ve ever been from crisis or relapse. That is HUGE for me.

    So today, I’m encouraging you to be proud of feeling the emotions you feel. It just means your body is responding to daily life. Be kind to yourself, ALWAYS.

    Stay safe, my lovelies.

    Rhiannon Xx